My boyfriend took this picture last night. I was giving him a hard time about taking more screenshots of his Pokémon than he took pictures of me. I started to turn away and heard the click of his phone as he grabbed this quick pic of me.
My first instinct was to tell him to delete it. It was a terrible picture. I never like how I look in pictures and there’s nothing I hate more than showing the clutter in the house. This picture shows both. Instead, I took a second look at it. Something about this picture spoke to me. It’s an accurate portrayal of how I feel my life is right now. It’s the truth behind the scenes…behind the smile…behind the public persona.
We’re in the middle of decluttering the house. We’re taking everything out of one space at a time and deciding what to keep, toss, or donate. It looked like a bomb went off. I couldn’t help to pause and take in the scene of chaos around me and see how it mirrored my life. It’s time for change, it’s time for letting go, and most importantly, it’s time for me to actively decide what I want my life to be. And it’s messy. And I’m sad. And it’s all part of the process.
It’s ok to make changes. It’s ok to let go. It’s ok to be sad while you’re growing, healing, and creating. Even if you feel like a blur, life will come into focus when you’re ready to take the steps needed to move forward.
Unbound Light 